God uses the bad...

I've been thinking about friends lately. No...not the tv show either. I've been thinking about what makes a friend a good friend; and why it is that sometimes even the best of friends have to be let go. I think that I have a few good reasons.

In the past two years or so, I have lost two friends. Actually, one chose to leave, and one I had to choose to let one go. At the times that it happened, I was devastated. Now, looking back, I can't help but think how different I would be if those things hadn't happened. Although I was prepared for the second time, I think that it was the worst....

Here's how to make this long story much shorter. There were three of us...I think that if you tried to describe us, the word inseperable would be the one to come up. The one day, on of them chose to leave. To this day, I'm still not exactly sure what happened. For an insane amount of time, I was so bitter. I was so angry with her for leaving. It was like our family had been broken up. Thankfully, I had my best friend. We were able to get through it together, and more than anything, we were able to get closer to each other.

The second time it happened, I was prepared for it, even if I wasn't ready for it. I know, I know...it's just as confusing now as it was then. It's been a little over a year since it happened. I have no doubt that if I was in trouble and called this person with some terrible crisis, he would be by my side in two minutes flat. But, no matter how trustworthy and honorable I found him, I had to let him go. I was doing some serious cleaning of my life, and I couldn't support him and have my life be in tune with God. I remember the last phone call...I knew it would be the last real conversation I would ever have with him. I knew I had hurt someone, but I couldn't risk my relationship with God.

Here is why I am sharing all of this. God always lets us know what we have to do...what the purpose is. Whether it's going to be good or bad, there is always always always a plan for it. Every one has gone through at lest one crazy thing that changed their life. I can't wait to see how God uses the things that I have gone through to change someone else's life.